"Nothing Waves"

Here I ride my head waves,
telling me nothing
I look long for meaning,
and conclude I'm dreaming
As in the end all of my thoughts
are left and lost without a clue
And in a sense experience
can never last or hold the truth
and the sound's no use
So this taste is my fate
and this time is a wait
and our life is insane
So all that I have left to do
is ride these nothing waves
All answers dissolve and disappear
as all that we are is see-through clear
to me, and I'm empty
yet all of these feelings put me to sleep
momentarily
so sad to see, so sick to be
Drifting without reason, feeling what I must
What creates my being, needing me like lust
and so I find that all it wants is for me
to be head-fucked and full of fear
until the end, and it repeats again,
and all we have is a broken mirror
That is all too clear
This smile hides pain,
this feeling is fake
and this will never change
So all that I have left to do is ride
these nothing waves